2008

Happy New Year

.. and

May the new year bring greater luck with it!

Ugly feet

Gosh I just saw my pictures I uploaded on my blog of my new pair of shoes. It didn't occur to me before that my feet look horrible in that picture.

29th pair

I didn't find any other christmas presents today. Howevah... I found these beauties. Red is not much my colour but I wanted a red top or something that way for christmas and wouldn't it be better to match it all with a pair of red shoes. Besides I like that kind of shoe, I already have one pair in purple, but everytime I visit that store I find new colours of the same type of shoe.

Speaking of shoes yesterday *whistling cheerfully*

Can't resist!

I will go on a shopping round today too. I hope to finish with everything today, I have ideas for the friends gifts. I think we will go to Jägersro center and E-center. I will put all my will and power into restraining myself when we come close to the shoe shop.

I will go and get ready now, and also put things away from my room.

Shopping round 3

The gift shopping for my family is all done now. Yes I did came home with something for myself today too. A necklace, a pair of earrings and a kakuro game for my pc. When I opened my door I was told to leave again if I've bought another piece of clothing for myself, and as the good girl I am I hadn't bought a single piece of garment for myself. I was tempted though.

Now I just need the pressies for my friendies. Thinking about coming along with mum tomorrow when she's going christmas shopping again.

Shoe-o-holic

Acidentally I found an old article on the website of a swedish newspaper, Aftonbladet. The article was about girls obsession about shoes. According to statistics I am normal. The mean of pair of shoes in a womans possesion is 19 pairs. I'm almost a member of the 15 % of women who owns more than 30 pairs of shoes, I have 28 pairs. I think that maybe, but only maybe, I might be addicted.

In the article it also says that 13 % of the women hide the receit of their shoe shopping. I have nothing to be embarressed about, so no I'm not among those 13 %. The absolute most expensive pair of shoes I've bought myself is the pink pair I bought in Gran Canaries this summer, they cost 38.5 Euros. Otherwise I had a pair of shoes my parents paid for me, 399 SEK, and I have a pair of Adidas shoes I bought with a gift certificate I won. So that doesn't count, and it was 500 SEK

My latest finding is a beautiful pair with sky high stiletto heels, only 199 SEK.

I also have an unnatural craving for clothes too. Dresses, skirts, tights, leggings, tops and many other types of clothes. Not pants though.

Mum and I were out shopping the other day, friday to be exact (payday). I shopped for more christmas gifts, but I also came home from Mobilia with a brand new bag for my new years outfit, stuff I was in need of such as socks and a bra and a nosepiercing (I lost my old one). Yesterday mum and I went for round two of christmas shopping, Jägersro center and E-center. This time I came home, my hands searing with pain, a happy owner of a new red top, a black and white dress/tunic and underwear. I also finished all my shopping except the present for dad and a tiny teeny thing for mum and likeweise for friends.

Another weekend with nightshift

My first nightshift after my resignation from the newspapers. It was truly wonderful to come home in the morning and go to bed directly. I woke up seven hours later and thought I'd slept like ten hours. What surprises me the most is how fresh I felt when I started my shift. I wasn't tired at all through the night.

All through, it was very fun. Friday was pretty calm but not slow. There was always people in the lobby, but it wasn't overfull all the time. But yesterday was a bit boring. It was too quiet in the beginning, barely any people the first four hours and then people came, but only for like two hours then it was thin with people between five and six. During the boring parts of the nightshift we made our own happiness so to say. I messed around with the kitchen many times during those two nightshifts. Threw icecubes, which Ricky put in the neck of Mirza's shirt. That might have been the reason to why I was bombarded with dried bread and pickles.

But later on I threw fries on the people in the kitchen and got another round of bread and pickles on me, but I stop quickly when I was threathened with the mayo shot. Also I made a nice cuphat for Mirza and it was decorated by someone else with a plastic gloria or whatever it is called. Then we also had the sticker war, who's the one to put the most amount of stickers on someone's back. I managed to put one on Emma's ass which she had on while she was in the lobby cleaning, and Emmie for once suceeded to put two on my back which I didn't notice.

Party plans

Worked today from 12-20. Working tomorrow from 11-19. I don't really have much to tell. I was out shooping tuesday with Emmie. Got a bolero for my new years outfit, and I found beautiful shoes, cheap also. So I borrowed money from my sister to buy them. When I tried them at home I concluded that the were higher than any of my shoes I've ever had. These are also the fifth pair I've bought since september. I want to buy a party bag too for new years but I don't know if I'll do that. Everything is not completely settled yet. I am at least keeping a low profile with the drinking because of my tablets. If we are doing something I know for sure I'll do it with Emmie. We were discussing a few plans but don't know yet. Ricky also has a few suggestions as for the partying. Think he wants me to come along either to Golddigger or to Maria's club. Well I won't go to Golddigger, but Maria's club only if Emmie wants.

But I don't feel up to much of a party actually. Just a still friendly evening with alcohol of course and talking and nice food and such. Maybe more friends. I'm thinking about the doggy too. Ricky said they might even go out after 12 like around 1.

Well we'll see.

Off to the shower

Lights turned on. Floor swept. Dishwasher emptied. Well most of the things is done and now I guess I am going to start making dinner and have time to take a shower.

Busy

I'm up and down today, and I am not refering to mood swings, I mean literally from the chair. I'm doing alot of things at the same time. Emptying the dishwasher, putting things back to their right places, updating my blogs. Soon I will probably start to sweep the floor, turn on lights. walk the dog and have a shower too. It's needed!

What to do?

Hmm I think I am going to play the Sims 2 for a while, or maybe tidy my room up a bit.

Sick

Not feeling very well today so I called in sick. I think I am going to stay home tomorrow too as well. I've had a very productive day anyway. Been helping out with the laundry, and updated almost all my old drafts I had. See very productive

Work again

Here I am again at work. Only have a eveningshift, but it's ok I'm off tomorrow. Next week I am working six days, off wednesday because of an doctors appointment. So sorry for this the space key on the keyboard doesn't work. I'll update as soon as possible.

Updated today. Now I have space between my words. Yay

Btw

I should really update my older posts. I have 6 drafts waiting to be finished.

Interesting day...

...creates interesting facts

1. I do love my hair cut.
2. I found something out at work today I should probably not have found out from that person.
3. I am on my way.
4. I have started a new blog in swedish. The theme is my way back.
5. www.thebrokenfairy.blogspot.com
6. I am tired
7. I wanna play The Sims 2
8. I am going to play the Sims 2 for a while
9. Then I am going to sleep.
10. I must be tired because I keep listing facts that are totally irrelevant.
11. I'm off now
12. Have fun...
13. ... and good night

Sims 2

I have become a sucker for The Sims 2. Yesterday I ordered two extensions from cdon. They had a campaign, where I could by 2 for 499 or 3 for 699 I think it was. When I was about to wrap up my order there was a message telling me that if I ordered for over 600 I got free posting. So I also ordered the new H&M fashion stuff.

Today when the post arrived There was a note for me telling me to pick up a package, said and done. Now I am going to try some of them out.

Wind of change

On this very windy day I had an appointment with a hairdresser scheduled.

The result was absolutely awesome, I love it!

Craziest night

Nightshift again. Yesterday was the most craziest night I've ever experienced during my five months at McDonald's. The Christmas beer for this Christmas was released in the pubs at nine o'clock and apparently all the people need to go out and drink. Things wasn't improved either when I found out it was the first weekend in the month. I had a cashier for myself with back-up. We had two other cashiers open both with personal back-up. I got all the scary people at my register. At one point I was yelled at by a person I hadn't done anything against and she blamed me for not giving her danish money back, which I did. Trembling I punched out this morning. Hope tonight's going to be calmer.

Christmas spirits

It's november "holidays" for the school kids this week. In our family we have a few traditions we alway stick to more or less during this week when we usually were off from school. I WERE usually off school, however november holidays doesn't apply to work sadly enough. Today the family minus Alex went for one of those annual visits, to Tomtebyn which every year is present at Vellinge Blomman in Vellinge. As always this visit appeals to my chritmasy mood, and this year wasn't different.

I didn't came home with what one would expect from a place flooding with christmas garlands, father christmases in all forms and the like. No, I came home with decorative vases and flowers for my future decorated room. Ever since my parents and I had a huge discussion and they said that we could decorate my room because it was needed, I have been brainstorming about how I want it to look.

Right now my room have light walls with small purple blue flowers, with purple details such as curtains, candles and pillows. But I have been thinking of having my walls painted lilac-purple. The more I thought about it these days I've been more and more attached to having black in my room, not necessarily on the walls but as a detail colour. Having black on the walls would be nice to mix with the purple details but It would become too dark for my taste. As I've mulled it over I left the thoughts of black and thought of having purple walls with a gold border, kind of chain-like. I discussed it with mum and told her bout wanting to mix with another colour, when she gave me the idea of having one wall in another colour. Again black came in to my mind and I really want that in my room. Today at Vellinge Blomman everything was settled. I am going to have one wall black and the rest light purple, with a golden border and perhaps a black pattern on the purple walls and purple on the black wall.

So back again to our trip. I came home with two golden vases, two black plastic flowers a golden candle plate and two candles for christmas use. One date candle, a thick one, and a 15 cm block candle which I am going to turn into an advent candle to be lighted every sunday until Christmas. To get back to my new found plans for my room I have actually liked the idea of having a small plastic christmas tree in my room with purple and black balls in it, ever since we moved here, so why not all the time.

I can't really wait to decorate my room now I've got an idea. My parents said it probably will be after christmas, but knowing myself and my will to buy things, I will probably buy the things I need before and start decorating myself if no one helps me. I want to have it now.

I wish for black and gold details for my room for christmas.

Godis

Well I've come to a point again when I am not going to eat any candy for at least a month. More if I can of course. But knowing myself when it comes closer to christmas I won't be able to resist. I hope I manage november at least.

Gee gurl make a desicion

Alright, I love Karl. I was going to move to Cambridge and live with him. Yea I said was, I changed my mind a week before I was supposed to go. I love him so freaking much, but I can't do nothing. I don't want to move, and he doesn't want to move back here. What to do? There's only one possibility left. We live where we want to live and end our relationship, and engagement. I've had many good times with him, and I will always remember those times.

I've realised that my decision to move to England only was a way for me to keep him. Somehow I knew that when he left for England in July, he was never to come back to Sweden. Then he grew insecure over there in England, and he didn't know if he wanted to have a relationship or if it would work out. He kept me waiting for his decision and it came. We broke up even though I in my desperation said I would move to England to be with him.

A couple of weeks passed during which we had only sporadic contact. Then suddenly he told me how much he missed me and that he realised that he loved me too much to let go. This was just the day before we went on our holiday and we decided to talk when I got home. I went on vacation and when I got home we talked. He asked if I still wanted to move to him and if I was serious. I said I was because I still was desperate not to loose him. After a week or so we came to the conclusion that we wanted to continue.

Then we started discussing when and how and all that. I had problems talking about it with my parents. Especially since they were already dissapointed in me for getting back together with Karl. Well it came out that I was moving, during a very loud argument with my parents which I caused. Several discussions and arguments followed up until a week before I was going. I had already resigned at McDonald's and from my paper job, the ticket was booked, and that was about it. I had no case, not much money and no way of getting all my stuff to England.

The following arguments/discussions was a way for my parents to try to wake me up. Finally and quite miraculously I understood. I don't want to move. I have problems enough to take care of. I hoped that he still loved me too much to let go, but obviously he didn't because he is not going to move back here, and now our path are going in different directions

Drunk people

Another nightshift. I do hate the nightshifts very much, but at the same time it's pretty fun seeing all the drunk people. Me myself, I love watching all the girls dressed up. I check their shoes, make-up and clothes out. Of course it is also funny when someone is very drunk, but it can be extremely tiresome too. Obnoxious people is very common too.

AdSense

Right someone knows anything bout adsense? Been thinking about for sometime and I wonder if it is safe? Not that I am expecting much money but the statistics tell me there are more people visiting my blog than I ever thought there was.

Is it safe?

My very bad day

Three movies in total. Started off in the morning with Night at the museum then around 16.00 I saw Simpson the movie with my brother. He and I somethimes have little Simpson gatherings, it's cosy. The third one the whole family started watching for dinner but somehow I was left alone to see the rest. It was Hairspray btw.

All in all the day has passed on fairly quickly, woke up wathed a movie, just lay in bed thinking, had a "fika" with the family, watched a movie with Jonathan, sat in the sofa thinking, ate dinner while watching a movie, turned on the pc and checked facebook, chatting to Karl and small detours to the bed to stretch my tummy. Ta da - My day

The day's been a bad one. I've been extremely depressed for some reason, felt very lonely and sad. Hours have been spent in bed staring at nothingness. Of course was also this day when me and some friends had planned for a photo shoot and movie night also spoiled. I tried to get hold of them both until I gave up. This also happened last time I tried to plan something with them, it backfired and it turned out they met up after all having that photo shoot we planned together. Well now I've tried my best and hardest twice and I surrender. If you don't want to met up then fine. Also facebook has pissed me off today. For a while it has denied me to accept invitations and stuff alike, but today I found out it is also denying me to write to other people. It just keeps saying "page error"

Page error my ass

Inspired

Yesterday I came across a few fashion blogs and became very inspired, so here is today's outfit of mine:

So here we have a very cosy and comfortable black ballon dress from Gina Tricot, leopard leggings from Clothing Company, Black leg warmers from Coop Forum, Grey high heel boots from Skopunkten, a bracelet from either Glitter or Kicks and a heart shaped watch from a bazaar in Puerto Rico.

The boots are my latest shoe purchase and I simply love them, they are a bit high but I am definitely going to learn to wear them. I think I can walk in them without looking embarrasingly stiff.

Culture night

Today's the day. Had a early eight hour shift today. Even during daytime there was a difference to the amount of people coming in. Mostly all day the lobby was full of people and the lines long. Around 14.00 or 15.00 some of the managers and crew members started stocking up everything they could to absolute maximum. When I left a bit over 16.00 Maria said, now it starts. Indeed the lobby was as full as it usually is at a nightshift but definitely not at 16.00 a normal day. They are well prepared at least. They are going to have five cashiers and five backups for the cashiers, and I think it was fifteen people who is going to be in the kitchen. I am glad I am not working night or evening shift today.

Random

I have an early week this week, except saturday when I have a nightshift. Lucky I don't have nightshift on the 12th when it is "kulturnatt". I've been told for months that that night would be reeally busy. I have a dayshift, yeah. Today I joined the guys stocking up and taking in the inventories. It was pretty fun actually but I can say for sure that my arms are going to hurt tomorrow.



These blogportals I have joined made me realise I should have joined them ages ago. I made a weak attempt in the beginning to register my visitors. I wasn't after the IP-adresses, just to see statistics of how many visitors and regular readers there were reading my blog. I asked around and got help to start some page for tracking visitors, but somehow it got disfunctioned, so I asked for help. Sanna had to do what she could to make it work, mainly because she put me into this blog world. Anyway neither could work it out (rather Sanna couldn't work it out, I never made a true attempt :S). Now I am registered at a few blog portals where I not only can see my statistics, I also get a bit of publicity.

Rushing past

It's amazing how time can just run away. This involves many changes of course. I don't know what I am blabbering about but what I wanted to say was that it was a very long time ago since I turned 19 and the months until I turn 20 could be counted upon one hand, 3 months, yet it seem like it was yesterday. Valentine's day, easter, family members birthdays, my exams, my graduation, the trip to Cambridge, the bad and rainy summer, midsummer, Gran Canaria holiday, Diploma distribution ceremony and four months of work.

My life is rushing past! Now is the time to do what I want. I have many hard months behind me, looking back I wonder: How did I make it sofar? But yet I know there is many more months like that to come, and I am afraid. Afraid of how long I can take it, at the same time I am determined to manage. I wish I could be able to explain everthing I feel at the moment, but even as I try everything gets confused. Least that's something that shines through, I guess. In plain words I feel confused, frustrated, extremely lonely, sad, angry, unloved, furiated and so on and so forth.

I am aware of that I have made decisions that have definitely put me in this situation, but I don't regret me making those particular decisions. This is what I want whether people like it or not. I just wish I had support, it's hard enough when as it is I don't need anyone to make it even harder.

I love Karl and I miss him so much. I trust him and believe strongly that we are going to be happy together. And if it against my belief don't turn out good, then what can I say, I lived and don't have to regret it later on.

Feel that it's time to wrap this up now as I am crying, Wish I could get hugged by someone. Taken into someones arms and just held forever. Hugs has always had a most precious value to me, lacking it is torture.

I need a hug

Done

Ok now almost everything is fixed from my list.

• Definitely updating the blog posts I already started but somehow was unable to finish at the time. CHECK
• Run an errand in town on the bank and maybe have a stroll around. CHECK
• Finally checking out the Sims 2 extension pets and the stuff packages. CHECK
• Watch the rest of the Lee Evans show. CHECK
• Maybe have a movie night.

Seeing as I've done most of the list I am actually pleased with myself. The movie could be done when I get to bed, maybe watching a short movie or I can exchange it for a little bedtime reading.

I really do regret that I actually didn't try the extension packs out before, they are freakin awesome. I installed the chritmas pack and was surprised that nothing happened but when I started the original Sims 2 everything was there. However when installin family fun, this started on it's own using the cd for the family fun pack. I didn't install the pets extension but I bet everything that I will tomorrow.

Free monday

Woke up fairly early this morning and had a few plans in my mind:

• Definitely updating the blog posts I already started but somehow was unable to finish at the time.
• Run an errand in town on the bank and maybe have a stroll around.
• Finally checking out the Sims 2 extension pets and the stuff packages.
• Watch the rest of the Lee Evans show
• Maybe have a movie night.

2 out of 5 done, and now I'm off trying out the Sims 2 extensions.

Blackness

Ok the week's worth of work has been going ok sofar. But I really do feel sorry for the manager's and people working there, my mood is altering from day to day, it's horrible. Any way I came home from a closing shift yesterday around 2.30 and found to my big surprise that this time the light was left on in the hallway, for once. On the to other occasions when I've got home late lately it's been pitch black. First time I thought that it was maybe Alexandra just forgetting and turning off the lamp, but the second time it happened she was sleeping at her boyfriend's.

Well anyway the lights were on and I didn't have to be afraid to fall in the stair on my way to my bedroom

30 minutes

I am on my break right now. 30 minutes in total. I have actually been longing for a break for about 20 minutes before I got one but kept telling myself I want to wait to half through work so as to leave me with less than half my shift when I'm back from my break. But then I got an early break anyway which was pretty good. I had a late morning as I always have when I have evening shifts (I Love them too!), and therefore also a late breakfast. So this break will be devoted to lunch and then I will have dinner when I come home tonight around 8 o'clock.

In general work is easier to muster when I don't have to get up so very early, and the fact that I mostly have monday to friday and nightshifts every second to third week is pretty good. I am put on the front almost always nowadays and my danish has improved greatly. What else also has improved is actually my skills in the kitchen the other day I was mostly positioned in the kitchen and I was really surprised myself at how well it went. Also the manager in charge praised me the day after saying I did a really good work the day before. Yesterday I was in the kitchen for some hours because there was a training going on. After a while however the trainer was taken out of the kitchen and I was left in charge of the training. Very surprised vut proud at the confidence I trained this person for a while, even though I'm not a qualified trainer nor studying to become one.

Shopping delirium fades away

Around eleven o'clock I wake up and stretches in my big bed. Oh how I love those sleep-in mornings when the phone lies quet on it's shelf and I am allowed to wake up whenever I feel like waking up. Well I get up take my time eating breakfast, having a shower and dress and then I was off to town determined to shop some shoes. I had seen a pair I wanted the week before when I was out shopping birthday presents for my siblings, but I decided on waiting. I shouldn't have done that though. The pair or pairs, rather, one pair cost 100 swedish kronors in black (on sale) and the other both in grey or in black cost 200 swedish kronors.



Well since I liked both pairs I decided to go for the cheaper ones, but I was foolish to think that the shop would still have them a week later. I wasn't sad at all the other pair was also very nice, and I knew that I would take the grey ones because grey is something I was determined to buy more of. In the store trying the shoes out they were absolutely fabulous. Into town I went and there I found a very beautiful dress also on sale. Ha! I thought and bought two dresses one black and one grey for only 98 kronors.

Anyway the happiness I have felt all day is gone now. Why did I agree on changing shifts and taking Jonathan's nightshift?

WHY?

Day after

Yesterday was one of those horrible day you don't really want to remember at all. Just wake up the day after and blissfully ignore it. However I cannot just ignore it. Finally after quite some time I was able to talk to Karl properly and it was such a relief but at the same time very upsetting. I don't know why but I was in a horrible temper after that, wheter it was my frustration subsiding a bit or me being reluctant to go to work, I don't know.

Among injuries

The nightshift went ok. Friday night was a bit dull, but saturday brought silliness due to lack of sleep. Maybe also that was the factor to why I was careless and slipped on the wet stairs while we were closing the underlobby in the morning after the restaurant closed. My left elbow is now bearin a cut and my ass a big black and blue bruise. The biggest bruise I've ever seen in my whole life, it's bigger than my two hands put together. Even though the tiredness was mighty I never felt really tired until two hours before I was off, but surprisingly I made my way home and out with the papers feeling exhausted. Sunday passed quickly as I slept until nine and then stayed awake two or three hours before I slept until 10 the day after.

Exploding anger

My heart is thumping fast, I'm angry beyond anything I've felt for a very long time. This caused by lack of support. He promised he would be there for me and help me through hard times. But obviously I'm not getting the support I need. The only thing I really needed him to do was to talk to me. I can understand that the week has been hard for him with hard work and lots of over-time and on top of all social network such as training, friends and family.

I guess I'm just angry right now because for the last week there's only been brief talks mainly about what happened during the day, nothing else. Right now I'm in a very needy period. It's doing my head in, to use one of his precious expressions. I guess my anger will fade as soon as I'm fresh and slept enough hours, as I've only slept 1 1/2 hours today, and I'm about to start another nightshift plus paper round.

I will be sleeping like a rock when i get home around 12-13 tomorrow. I'll give myself a couple of hours wake up stay awake for a few hours and then a normal night. Yay

My frustrating day

Long day at work today. Yucky morning as it was, however I came to my senses and understood that I do like it anyway. Early mornings mean opening the restaurant, i.e opening of the kitchen, lobby and the front. This is approximated to two hours before opening hours, two hours that goes by pretty quickly leaving a feeling of no work. As for today when I was supposed to work from 8.00-15.30, two hours rushed away, leaving me with 5.5 hours including 30 minutes of brake. No big deal. The day being rainy, left us all in a bit of a frustrating state as in periods we had nothing to do, the restaurant was lacking people. Ok, stock up! Ok Stock up done. Now what?

Leaving already 15.00 I took the train back home, which fortunately wasn't packed like it was this morning. Only one single train arrived at Svågertorp in the early morning rush to work. Let's put it this way, the train was packed to bursting point. When the train slowed down or accelerated one didn't even need to hold on, you stood straight up anyway. After the doors were closed behind the last crammed people at Svågertorp a person in the speaker tell us that due to graffiti vandalism the other train which this was going to be conected to had to be taken out of traffic due to regulations of Skånetrakien. He proceeded with "You might find this silly but this is the decision of Skånetrafiken" and "I know it's not easy for you in there"

Back home here I have been reading Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix and of course updated the blogg. I'll wrap it up here, saying it's been a frustrating day. I'm off to be and some bed-time reading. Tomorrow is pay day aka shopping day and then nightshift weekend =( sucks

Another rainy evening

I can hear the small splatter of raindrops on my window. In one way I like it, I think it's cosy to crawl up in bed with a good book or in front of the tv watchin a movie when the rain's pouring down. The latter should be done in company with someone you care. I think summer is at last defeated, as i'm waking up every morning shivering even though I'm wrapped in my very cosy goose feather cover. Walking around in the appartment with only a top and shorts is not an option either. Today my wolly socks were taken out of their hiding place and put on my dead cold feet.

Even though I normally suffer from some kind of depression when the weather gets colder and yellow and red leaves fall to the ground, I find myself enjoying the colorfull heaps around the paths, not feeling depressed at all. Too many episodes of Sex and the city, and I see visions of a colourful New York with a longing moan in my tummy. I want to be there, experience it all, and of course it wouldn't hurt to be in Sarah Jessica Parker's shoes, just for once. In times like these I drift away in day dreams, longing to be somewhere else. Might this be called a depression anyway? It might be that I do feel depressed, though supressing it, infusing a faulty impression of only simple day dreaming. Rather indifferent to the weather change, I feel that there's just life as it has been for a very long time now.

Oh how I wish I had a solid strong window sill to sit on...

Gah

Horrible! That's the only real word for today

Summer's defeat

Today was a very cold day, the wind was blowing harder than ever and the breeze was so cold. Earlier than I can remember does it seem like the summer after a very feeble try had to give way for the autumn. However at the moment both of them seem to have some kind of battle. One day the sun shines and one can actually wear long legged pants and a sweater ( long arms of course) without any chance of shivering. Then the other day, like today, when one dresses like a sunny day the autumn wins the battle and cold raindrops soak you when you are getting your way home. The day after one dresses for a cold day with a coat and warmer clothes. What happens then, the sun shines and warm up the air makin you sweat in all your warm clothes

I am sure that we will get an exceptionally early autumn this year. The summer is fighting a losing battle. When autumn puts in it's true powers it's not going to take long before summer is defeated. Yes this year's weak summer will be easily defeated.

Yucky early mornings

After three days without work, I'm back again for another five days. The worst of all now since the schools stated is that they've put me on dayshifts. A couple of months ago I wouldn't mind, but, however all summer I have been working most evenings and nightshifts and thereby grown pretty used to and comfortable with sleep-ins and lazy days. I guess it's good to start the day early and then have the rest of the evening to chill out, but every morning when my alarm wake me up (either 6 or 8 o'clock), I curse the person putting me on those dayshifts.

Well there's actually one good thing with having the dayshifts, all the young people working there is in school and then the manager's most often put me on the front, which I love even though I dreaded the day when they were going to train me on the front. Actually I'm quite impressed by myself. I had an hour or so training on the cashier on a nightshift then I mastered the whole night and the night after, of course with back up at times.

Back in bookheaven

This afternoon has been spent reading piled up against my many pillows in the bed. It was a long time since I really felt that desperate need to read. Instead of watchin scrubs before I go to bed I read a couple of pages. My library card has been fixed now, and when I was there anyway I borrowed that fantasy book I never had the time to finish and had to return to Malmö Borgarskolas bibliotek plus another book that caught my attention. this particular book I actually saw a couple of weeks ago at Lagerhaus as a paperback book, and apparently it's pretty new. Well the cover was pink with a very tasty lookin cup of latte. I think it's one of those romantic books taking place in manhattan. Well I'll see if I like it. Jack said it's a good book when I came to work.

What's the future bringing

Maybe I shouldn't make any promises, because I haven't really seen a sight of that promised post more than a week ago.

Been working a lot the last couple of days and to me it seem like the days just passed in a blur. The same thing happens everyday. But at the same time i move forward.
Last weekend I worked nightshift meaning I started at 23.00 at friday and worked until 7.00 saturday morning. Frankly we weren't done in time which we never are after a nightshift so I had to stay an extra half hour, so i wasn't home until 9.00 and then it was just to get ready to go to the Diploma Ceremony. That was quite fun actually, teachers bringing up old memories and stories about us. Then finally we got our proof of our very hard work the mighty diploma itself which is a huge merit in itself and even better if the grades were fairly good.

A nice lunch was served in the school's dining hall. I can honestly say that I reluctantly left the dining hall and the school itself after a couple of hours of memories. Even though this ceremony has been awaited and being the centre of day dreams through these three years of IB it was a very sad day.

Now we are released into this world to find out what we are going to do next. Some of us already have everything planned whilst others don't have a clue. Me myself only know that I will continue work. The freedom has made me confused and less determined on what I want. Honestly I don't know what I want to do anymore. For now I'm happy working and even if the work is not a very glamorous one I think 130 SEK an hour is great plus all the extra paid evening, night and weekend hours.

Ok now I am going to go to bed and continue reading Harry Potter and the prisoner of Azkaban. I'm reading the books all over again, before I am gonna move on to finishing the Saphire rose by David Eddings and then read all my own unread books. Hey I've got more time on my hands now =)

Pre-work

Tomorrow I am gonna make an up to date update. Since I came home I have basically been working and sleeping, so today I thought I'd meet up with friends and fill in on all what's been happening. While in town I could just as well enjoy the many different dishes on the malmö festival before I take the train to work. Dammit I have close tonight so I won't be home until half two. Well on the bright side I am free three days.

13 hours left

The suitcases are packed, hand luggage filled with essential travel lecture, travel clothes are lying on a chair in my room and the whole house is clean. The ipod is pumped up with loads of music. Finally I am going back to the place which long has been considered to be my second home. Tomorrow 11.30 my holiday starts for sure. That's when the taxi come pick us up and drive us to the airport. The fact that there is a massive outbreak of fire on the island doesn't stop us. Yes it has been spread from the central part of Gran Canaria to outer parts and yes tourist places like Arguineguin and Playa del Ingles are in the risk zone, and yes Arguineguin is like maximum 2 kilometers from Puerto Rico. But Puerto Rico is pretty safe considering it being surrounded by mountains that blocks the spread.

Well there is very warm right now, heard on the news a couple of days ago that they've measured a record of 38 degrees. I wonder where they've measured that because we normally have between 35-42 degrees in Puerto Rico in August. I just hope that I don't have to repeat my story of last year with the ear licker Brian, and I'm sure there won't be any mentioning of the Cambridge Guy. He's not coming and it's over anyway.

Well i'll be back in two weeks with photos and a nice tan =)

Waiting to punch in

Sitting at the pc on work, waiting to punch in. This is the only thing that is boring with working in denmark. I take a train leaving a bit more than an hour before I start to be sure I'll be in time. So I sit here half an hour before I can punch in.

Good Charlotte and I

We are definitely not meant for eachother, to my great bad luck. This is the second time I know that they are playing in Malmö, and can I go? NO!

Saw this morning in a news paper add that the first two buying the New Good Charlotte album from Skivlagret will get ticket(s) to their concenrt at KB in Malmö. The 30th of May. It is not fair!!! My graduationday! Well I guess they'll come back once more. Last time when they were here I thought that would be the only time they were gonna go here to Malmö but apperently not.

Redish skin

The life of Josefina is up and running again... yay!!!

The last couple of days has been quite hot actually. The other day I burned my shoulder when I was sitting outside all day revising. But hey I have got a slight tan. I am thinking about start going to the solarium again. It was very effective.

I am shocked!

Finally! I can actually access my blogger account again. I didn't notice anything unusual when I first was able to see the main webpage but after looking at the page I was stunned, then I started to wonder if my mind once again was playing with me. The main webpage was in swedish. Wtf? It is usually in english, but now all of a sudden it is in swedish and dashboard has mysteriously turned into instrumentpanel. Instrumentpanel!?! Why this change of language, I like the english page.
It is funny how one can become so used to switching between two or more languages, that one cannot see a difference at a first look when the language has been changed from one language to another. To be completely honest it was the "instrumentpanel" that made me realise something is different.

Easter break

The only thing that stand between my nice easter break and me is a looong biology lesson, 1 hour and 20 minutes, revision. Today I am going to organise a revision schedule for myself. i think that I need to focus more on physics right now, because that is the first exam I am going to have. But really chemistry and biology is also very important to revise. Read the three swedish novels once again, and look at math and some old english paper ones and twos.

When it comes to me myself, I am all good. Life is starting to smile at me sligthly, but it is a weak smile, oh and yea I am going to start a new period of "no candy" on the 1st of april. It is necessary, tried on my summers clothes and well if nothing drastic happens soon I need to buy me a whole new wardrobe of summer clothes. No easter candy for me, NO! Besides I want a nice outfit for my graduation so I need to look good as well.

Now I am off to my biology lession. Laters

Exams

Now I am done with my maths mock exams and with my english mock exams. Tomorrow I am having two Biology mock exams.
Just gonna eat then I am off home to my fiance and my family.

My mum turned 29 yesterday (39 really, but she won't realise it, haha). We ate a nice dinner and cakes (small ones), and finnished off the night with coffee and hazelnut liqeur.

Btw the snow is almost gone, we had loads of snow just a couple of days ago.

Quick update

My christmas and new year was wonderful. I'll keep you posted as soon as possible. There is loads to tell. I am in school right now and had a minute over before going for lunch.