Ultimate Dream

Been up since 2.30 now and snoozed a half hour or so before. Surprisingly I'm not deadly tired now

I just dropped in before going to bed to say that to be confused is shit, absolutely fucking shit.
My mind is turned upside down by all the crazy and irrational thoughts I have mixed with all possible wants and needs and dreams. Choices, decisions and making moves are all hard to do when you can't control one single thought. All my doubts, fears and indecisivness leads to a deep rooted depression that I mostly hide and do nothing about. Mostly to hide, to myself, the path I must go to reach my dream.

I wanna be a high eduacted sucessful woman, mother and wife, and live the perfect life. Absolutely ultimate dream

Hey nobody said anything about surreal dreams.